A new day is dawning indeed!!!
Babushka and I have been unable to 'connect' in far too long. This has left us both somewhat "Randie" (as Austin Powers would say). This has meant self-connection as the order of the day. That said I swung by the video store to rent a movie for said self-connection purposes.
For many who blog this I am sure is a 'so what' event. For a person who has struggled with pornography addiction all through his youth and marriage this is an action fraught with danger. For anyone who has an addictive personality, you know that much of the power of an addiction comes from its' secrecy:
- "I am not hurting anyone"......
- "I am not doing anything wrong".....
- "It's better than the alternative".....
- "She won't care".....
- "She is better off not knowing anyway"......
- "This is the last time anyway".....
The list could go on ad infinitum. The reality of the guilt and shame felt by the person in addiction proves all of the above excuses (and any others) to be nothing but lies we tell ourself.
So why am I blogging all this? Because yesterday I told Babushka that I was feeling the need to take care of my own business and let her know that I had rented a movie for the task "at hand". This morning we spoke in detail about my evening of "hard work" and the details of the movie (Maison Erotique - Evil Angel).
The most rewarding part of the entire evening was not the orgasm but the intimacy in sharing my fears, my needs, my desires .......the sharing of my transparent self......to my beautiful Babushka.
Instead of ending this entry with my typical tagline I will leave you with a photo of my lovely Babushka and an ability to click for a little bit more - Thanks
~D for all your help!

Babushka is the woman I dreamed about through years of loneliness and sorrow. I never believed she would be anything more than a wish and a whisper.
I am blessed..............