Friday, August 8, 2008

It is Over.....

....but I do not feel much like celebrating today. It is a strange place to be today, not the feeling I thought I would have when this started 20 months ago.
  • Yesterday I was accepting of the end result with the judge.............Today I am less accepting and again feeling that I have been made the fool
  • Yesterday I was anticipating an ability to finally adopt a better lifestyle...........Today I realize my lifestyle will continue to be in a basement with a 10-year old dented car for a much longer time
  • Yesterday I was dreaming of the endless possibilities for Babushka and I..................Today there is seemingly a reality that both Babushka and I are seeing which is perhaps not endless after all

Funny how often this sort of thing wait an eternity for something and once it finally arrives it is not what you expected.

Life is like that

Get Busy Livin' or Get Busy Dyin'
A shout out to the person responsible for the quote above - apparently he was too busy living rather than driving. I wish him a speedy recovery.

1 comment:

Dana said...

Just a few words of experience ...

Give it time. The divorce process is similar to having someone you are close to die. There really is a grieving process, and sometimes there seems to be no hope left. I does get easier, but it takes time.