Another Christmas Come and Gone

I must admit that I have never been a big fan of the 'holiday season', but this year I must say it was a truly enjoyable experience.

Christmas Eve was the inaugural 'Fab Five' evening with Babushka and I, along with the three amigos (Dude, BuddyLuv and Punkin). Over the last month or so, Babushka and BuddyLuv have been spending the weekends with the kids and I when they are with me. This is not easy, fitting 5 people into a 2 bedroom basement when Babushka and I do not share a room!! That said, I was nervous about how our first integrated holiday would go. It was a splendid day indeed! Presents were exchanged, games were played and cookies were baked. All this without the stress that I have felt on previous holidays (granted being with PB generally causes stress).

Christmas Day was just as nice, spent with Babushka's extended family. More cookies, more games and a successful dinner for 13 pulled off by yours truly (with Babushka of course). Our menu consisted of 4 Flank Steaks, Roasted Red Potatoes, Baby Greens Salad with homemade Balsamic Vinegarette and Dinner Rolls (ok - not baked by us). Another round of presents and games led to much joy and laughter. Again, all this yet no unrealistic expectations by those in attendance and little arguing amongst family members. Quite a treat.

Oh yeah - How could I forget Babushka seducing me (blanket in hand) into the bathroom of the basement for a little midnight rendezvous or the absolutely intense blowjob another evening just to ensure me a restful night :-)

Get Busy Livin or Get Busy Dyin
Mele Kelikimaka and Haouli Makahikihou

TMI Tuesday #166 - Merry Christmas!

1) What present do you hope ends up under you tree?
KAHUNA – Funny, Babushka and I were discussing this. She has had a hard time finding me anything for Christmas that is within our budget that someone else did not get me. It may sound corny, but Babushka in my life is a gift every day (although I look always look forward to unwrapping her).

2) What present are you most psyched about giving (PLEASE be vague or ignore this question if the recipient reads your blog)?
KAHUNA – This is the first year I truly (really truly) enjoyed Christmas shopping, as I found a couple of small things for Babushka that will touch her heart (and her funny bone). One was opened with the kids this weekend - A 2009 Audrey Hepburn calender.

3) DO you prefer to give or receive?
KAHUNA – As Babushka can attest to from last night, I prefer to give! I love the feeling of her muscles tensing up when she reaches her climactic release. It is a wonderful feeling to bring enjoyment to her…….plus I love how her skin gets ultra sensitive post-climax, allowing me to tease her with just the simplest touch.

4) What is your favorite part of a sexual partner's body?
KAHUNA – I love all of her body but we both know I am a butt man, especially her butt.

5) What is your favorite part your body - the one you hope a sexual partner will find or pay the most attention to?
KAHUNA – Shocking I know but I love when Babushka pays attention to my butt as well followed closely by my neck, feet and cock (in no particular order).

Bonus (as in optional): [Idea blatantly stolen from Os and hist HNT wishes.] What Christmas wishes would you grant to whom?
KAHUNA – I would grant Biscuit the teaching support that her son is not getting right now.

A weekend of beauty

It is the weekend before Christmas. I love Christmas. And, I love where I am at. And, I love my life.

Sometimes I worry about all the ups and downs I have. When I get "out of sorts" I cry a lot. sometimes for no reason. Sometimes there is a reason.

But, that is not today. Today I am the happy me with the smiling heart, surrounded by my loving new family. My new son, Dude, has interacted with us, all of us, for the last 24 hours. My new daughter, Pumpkin, cuddled with me as the boys were being brothers. My son, BuddyLuv, has bonded with everyone.

I know it will not always be like this. But, these are the times that assure me, we are doing the right thing. This is a positive for everyone involved.

One day at a time. One moment at a time. Letting go of the regret lets you do this. Letting go of the regret lets you not have to regret missing this day and this moment.

Since I am not very good at posting often, to everyone out there reading this, and even those who are not:

Merry Christmas
May this be a time of blessings for you.
Even if you don't believe is Christmas,
I wish for you peace.

Crying

I don't know why I cry so much. I could go on and on about what makes me cry. But, sometimes, it helps. And, I grow. And, I understand.

Its' been a week since my last confession......

It seems like life gets so crazy that the blog feels neglected. As we (I) prioritize our life with kids, work, school, extended family, holidays and the like the other simpler joys get left behind.

As with blogging, that is one of my hesitations regarding the 'M' word and all the fanfare of the event. Just like a brand new blog, all focus goes toward the 'blessed' day itself and life is consumed with that day.

The huge celebration with friends you rarely see anymore and family you do not like - everyone is on their best behavior and all smiles, waiting until the next week to talk 'trash' about this ugly centerpiece or that persons dress. My cynicism shows - my feelings toward Christmas are similar. The point of the day is Christ (Kahuna says knowing he is the antithesis of religious) , not who bought you what, why did you spend more on them than on me and all the stress with making sure food meant for 50 people (not the 10 you actually have) is done at relatively the same time as well as the inevitable arguing about dishes.

I love my Babushka and would rather spend my energy preparing for a lifetime with her, not an afternoon meant to impress everyone else. Obviously as all can see from my rant above, I have growth that needs to continue. I would never wish to deny my love of something so important to her.

I am simply afraid afraid. I do not want an artificial, superficial, arbitrary day to represent the 'celebration' of our life together.

I want our life as we live it together every singly day - the highs, lows and in betweens - to be that celebration.

GET BUSY LIVIN' OR GET BUSY DYIN'
Which one am I doing today?

Kahuna's Challenge

A while back, Kahuna and I had a difficult discussion about marriage. It was difficult because we hold the same values, but see them differently. At the end of our discussion, Kahuna challenged me to explore my thoughts further. Go deeper into their meanings. Since then, I have kept a book by my bed to jot notes in. I have categorized those notes into three sections:

• What marriage and a wedding mean
• Details I see when I dream of our wedding
• Experiences I don't want to miss and fear regretting if I do

This will probably be modified along the way. But, this is what I have come up with so far:

What marriage and a wedding mean

• Celebration of us
• Blessing of union
• Recognition of union by God, family, others
• Commitment to God and us
  

Details I see when I dream of our wedding

• Kahuna, Babushka, Dude, BuddyLuv, Pumpkin
• Dresses
• Suits
• Colorful flowers, not big, just pretty
• Special to do for nieces
• No bridesmaids/groomsmen
• Religious person for blessing
• No meal
• Ice cream bar/buffet?
• Deserts
• Immediate family, 2nd family, friends not huge, those that matter)
• My mom and I being able to do girl things together
• home made jewelry
• home made invitations
• Mansion, backyard, boat, non traditional
• not for sake of impressions, but for enjoyment and celebration
• Lots of candles
  

Experiences I don't want to miss and fear regretting if I do

• Dress shopping
• making invites
• planning
• flowers
• ladies day instead of bachelorette party
• Our first dance
• celebrating us
• working together w those we love
• bonding
• seeing you in your suit
• being blessed
• writing vows
• making favors
  

These are the things that I think of when I think of our wedding day.