I ADORE YOU AND MISS YOU.......

TMI Tuesday - 07/31/07

1. Toilet paper: over, under, or what the hell are you talking about?
KAHUNA – Over

2. Toilet when you are done: everything up, seat down but lid up, everything down?
KAHUNA – Typically Everything Down

3. When was the last time you kissed someone not your significant other? [I am talking about a kiss with some gusto not just a little hello or goodbye peck]
KAHUNA – 7 ½ Years Ago

4. Would you rather have your significant other (this can be a hypothetical SO) have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else? [You have to pick one.]
KAHUNA – Sex

5. If you had $1,000,000 to give away, how would you divide it up? Who and how much?
KAHUNA – Parents, Babushka, Children

Bonus (as in optional): Tell us something that very few people know about you.
KAHUNA – I had a brother who died 2 years before I was born

Monday Morning Sure Feels Fine......

Does anyone else have those blogging lapses?

Life seems so busy sometimes between school, kids, work, etc... - the blog seems to be what gets neglected lately. Seems like all we get to do is TMI Tuesday and every other HNT Thursday.

All things considered, life is wonderful. There are certainly areas of my life that gets frustrating or where I get impatient, but recovery allows me to put these areas in their proper perspective.

School:
Coming down the homestretch to completing the Bachelor's degree. I am near the end of Managerial Ethics, with only Business Law and Capstone remaining until I complete the degree that I began in 1984?!?!? How do I plan to celebrate - study for my GMAT and gather applications for MBA programs. What I do question though - is a $60,000-$80,000 MBA really any more valuable than a $25,000 MBA?

Kids:
Princess just had her 10th Birthday and could not be more excited to be "double digits". She is already looking forward to school, making me take her supply shopping as soon as Target put their supplies out. Dude turns 14 in 3 weeks and would be happy never returning to school -he just wants to play baseball all year round. They are both amazing kids and have handled the separation/divorce so much better than I imagined. I look forward to when they get to meet and spend time with Babushka.

Divorce:
Very slow going. There are times that I regret agreeing to continue to pay the mortgages and the bills (over 90% of my take home pay) through the end of the next school year so the Ex and the kids can live without significant disruption. I am going in debt and the Ex is really taking a loooong time to look for a job. With that said, it was my choice and desire to go through this process with dignity and grace, being a better ex-husband than I was a husband. Sure - I get frustrated because I would like to be acknowledged or appreciated for this. Recovery allows me to remember that it is not about her response or about me, really. It is about behaving in a way that I feel good about, worthy about and my way of making my amends.

Work:
Good News/Bad News: Job Security in place for now, with new owners looking to grow the company after 5 years of post-bankruptcy complaisance. Of course I now have $200 Million of sub-prime mortgage accounts to convert at the end of this month and another $250 Million to convert the end of next month, on top of my "real" responsibilities. Lot's of time in the office.

Babushka:
What can I say of Babushka - she is warm-hearted, loving, caring, and horny! Add to that her misguided belief that I am handsome :-) and this make for one blessed Kahuna. When my neck or back are tense she massages me........When I am hungry she makes me peanut butter cookies.....and when I ask to watch the news she changes the channel, pulls my clothes off and begins giving me a blow job and then looks up and asks if I am ready for bed. Needless to say I keep missing the weather report :-)

Get Busy Livin' or Get Busy Dyin'
Life is wonderful and too damn short - hurry up and enjoy!

Babushka's Turn

Hello, all!

I am so sorry that I was not able to post along with Kahuna. . . I didn't feel it was a very good idea to be writing this post on the job. . . I have copied Kahuna's answers here, even if you have already seen them, just because I like having our answers together.

Leather, lace or silk?
Kahuna – Silk, because it keeps me cool
Babushka - Leather, lace AND silk!

Do you subscribe (or regularly buy) to any "dirty" magazines? Which ones?
Kahuna – No I do not. The internet replaces any need for magazines.
Babushka - Kahuna took my answer!

Have you ever had sex in water (tub/pool/lake/ocean)?
Kahuna – Does the beach of an ocean count??
Babushka - That is one first I look forward to. So. . . not yet. But check back, I might just have a story soon!

The three words that best describe you in bed are ____, ____, and ____. Three words that best describe your most recent partner in bed are ____, ____, and ____
Kahuna – (Myself = Diligent, Confident, Satisfied)
(Babushka = Soft, Sexy, Vocal)
Babushka - (Myself = Vocal, Adventures, Sensual)
(Kahuna = Amazing, Diligent, Fun)

Did you lose your virginity as an impetuous youth, "to prove that you loved" him/her, because of a romantic gesture, a newly wed or other (please describe because I can't think of what an "other" might be)?
Kahuna – Other: I was met a gal at the mall with a friend who told me this gal liked me and would. He also reminded me of the embarrassment I should feel at 17/18 for still being a virgin. It was awkward and disappointing.
Babushka - Other (see introduction)

Bonus (as in optional): Name three words that:a) get you excited b) make you squirm c) make you laugh
Kahuna – I Adore You. . .
Babushka - I Adore You. . .

Another TMI Tuesday

1. Leather, lace or silk?

Kahuna – Silk, because it keeps me cool

2. Do you subscribe (or regularly buy) to any "dirty" magazines? Which ones?

Kahuna – No I do not. The internet replaces any need for magazines.

3. Have you ever had sex in water (tub/pool/lake/ocean)?

Kahuna – Does the beach of an ocean count??

4. The three words that best describe you in bed are ____, ____, and ____. Three words that best describe your most recent partner in bed are ____, ____, and ____

Kahuna – (Myself = Diligent, Confident, Satisfied)

(Babushka = Soft, Sexy, Vocal)

5. Did you lose your virginity as an impetuous youth, "to prove that you loved" him/her, because of a romantic gesture, a newly wed or other (please describe because I can't think of what an "other" might be)?
   Kahuna – Other: I was met a gal at the mall with a friend who told me this gal liked me and would. He also reminded me of the embarrassment I should feel at 17/18 for still being a virgin. It was awkward and disappointing.

Bonus (as in optional): Name three words that:
a) get you excited
b) make you squirm
c) make you laugh

Kahuna – I Adore You………….

Oral HNT

..............Hygiene that is (I know what you are thinking) .

My Babushka has beautiful teeth that I love to see a-smilin'.

I also do not mind seeing them play the (skin)flute but that is another matter altogether.

Happy HNT everyone!!

Get Busy Livin' or Get Busy Dyin'
...and get busy smilin' :-)

TMI Tuesday #92

1. What's the sexiest type of underwear?

BABUSHKA

Any worn by Kahuna (beat you, Kahuna!!!!!) Otherwise there are lacy boy shorts worn by woman in my fantasies.

KAHUNA

For gals I like thongs and lacy low-cuts. No such thing as sexy guy underwear.

2. Would you/have you ever paid money for sex?

BABUSHKA

Would I?..........I believe in never say never!

Have I, no. Unless you count heartless “boyfriends” who used me. . .

KAHUNA

I paid 15 years of my life and tens of thousands of dollars for infrequent, unenthusiastic sex. I think I have paid enough.

3. Is facial/body hair sexy or no? (Moustache, chest, etc. for men, and underarms/legs for women.) Or do you frankly not care?

BABUSHKA

On men, Yes (I never thought I would say that! It was never my thing! But now I get lost in space and time when I run my hand through Kahuna’s chest hairs! - NEVER SAY NEVER!)

On women, I prefer little hair other than long locks on their head! Smooth and soft is sensual!

KAHUNA

I am not fond of facial or body hair for women.

4. What is the strangest thing you've ever seen featured in pornography?

BABUSHKA

This is still a new world to me. However, I try not to judge, so I would not call anything “strange”

KAHUNA

I have stumbled upon a couple sites where women were with dogs or horses. I felt bad for all involved - the women, the animals and my eyes.

5. What's worse, not enough sex or too much? Is there such a thing as "too much"?

BABUSHKA

Not enough would be worse in my opinion because sex is so much more than just an act. If you are missing the sex, you are missing the more. That is a very sad thing. The only time I can see someone as getting “too much” is when it means nothing or is not fun/good and is taken for granted.

KAHUNA

Not enough (or none) is the worst feeling if you are in a committed relationship with the person, but that comes back to communication and consideration between the two. I would suspect that “too much” could be just as unrewarding if the same lack of communication and consideration exists.

Bonus: What's the most illegal thing you've ever done (that you can admit to, at least)? Were you caught?

BABUSHKA

Never done anything illegal J

KAHUNA

Driving under the influence of alcohol. I was caught (more than once). God willing and appropriate actions on a daily basis will ensure that will not occur again.

A thank you and an apology. . .

Hello, all!

Please let me say thank you first to everyone who visits our blog and comments. It is always so exciting to see that people actually look at what we put on here and take a moment of their lives to leave their footprints here! You have no idea how much your comments mean to us.

To be totally honest, there is something I have wanted to admit on here. Kahuna and I have already talked about this. But, I want to share it with you all. I have not been super excited by the idea of having HNT pictures taken of me and posted right now. If you look back into past pictures, there are some of me in black lingerie. Those were taken last summer. I was so proud of myself. For the first time in my life, I was physically fit after dropping about 20lbs. I was toned, trim and felt sexier than I ever had in my entire life. I also loved myself and liked myself.

In the fall (without getting into too much boring TMI) I was put on a medication that, within less then 2 months, caused a 30LBS weight gain. As I mentioned before, I have dealt with depression off and on over the years. This did not help. The funny thing is, this was when Kahuna and I first got together. He was so attracted to me, even at my heaviest, that he wanted to get to know me! He knew me at my smallest, but had not noticed those 30LBS that had been added on! To him, I was still the most beautiful, stunning woman he had ever seen!

We talked about the pros and cons and discontinuing the medication. It did not take long for me to know the right thing for me. So, I went off of it. They say it will take a full year for it to be totally out of my system. That means I should not expect to loose the full 30LBS that I gained for at least that long. I am now down 12. Only 18 more to go! But, it will be a long road and I want to do it right.

Which brings us to the apology part as I feel almost like I have misled you all. I feel as if I have falsely represented myself because I do not look like that woman in those initial pictures right now. (kind of like people who put another person's picture on their personal ad. . .)

My first thought when Kahuna showed me the pics he had taken was, gross. Look at the cellulite on my thighs. I look worse than I thought. But then I remembered to be gentle with myself, that as a female (at least as this female), it is almost instinctual to see my flaws first and sometimes only see them.

When Kahuna said he had actually posted one of the pictures as the HNT as he had hoped he could do, I was more than a little apprehensive. When he said I had a few comments already, my first words were, "yeah, gross cellulite!" He said no and that I would have to take a look myself. So, I did.

Now, for the thank you as meant in the title.

Kahuna, thank you. Thank you for not seeing those 30LBS. Thank you for being patient with me and allowing me to slowly see myself through your eyes, with or without those 30LBS. You have been a blessing and always make me feel like the most elegant and beautiful lady.

Visitors of our blog, thank you. Because you are anonymous, you could easily be malicious. But, you are not. Instead, you are kind, gentle and open.

I know I have more room to grow personally. I should not need these reminders or anyone else's approval to know who I am and what I am. I know that in my head. I am working on that in my heart.

Get Busy Livin' or Get Busy Dyin'!
I choose to live and grow!

Fantastic Four HNT

Four is rapidly becoming my favorite number:

Four...(O'Clock AM) - Babushka is making a habit of her early morning ritual, one that I admit I am becoming fond of. At about 4:00am, she awakes with a strong desire to have something in her mouth. The closest item to her liking is apparently my c*ck. Thankfully I am a an early riser (literally) and am more than willing to help.

Four...(Orgasms) - I absolutely adore Babushka - which all of you know. One of the many things that I adore is that she allows me to indulge in my seemingly perpetual desire to go down on her. I just love kissing her, licking her and making her cum (she has not complained....yet). On Monday, Babushka blessed me with four orgasms while I was feeding my desire to taste her deliciousness.

Which brings me to today's HNT...A look at the lovely Babushka relaxing Monday evening after her four orgasms.........but before my 4:00am awakening :-)


Get Busy Livin' or Get Busy Dyin'
"The early bird gets the worm"

TMI Tuesday #91

1. Who was your childhood hero?

BABUSHKA

Well, I don’t really remember having one. For more, jump to my introduction.

KAHUNA

I do not recall having a childhood “hero” per-se”

2. Have you ever had sex with someone who has a myspace page?

BABUSHKA

Probably.

KAHUNA

I have a myspace page so I suppose I would say with myself J

3. What fantasies have you openly told your partner about?

BABUSHKA

*smiling ear to ear* Kahuna and I have talked about my fantasies on all levels, not just sexually. For quite some time, I did not allow myself to have sexual fantasies because the ones I shared were so “stupid” and “wrong”. But, Kahuna adores me, fantasies and all. They are something special we have shared. I guess I am not ready to share those on TMI, even if I am anonymous.

KAHUNA

All of them - Including the one where she in her pooh jammies washing dishes……..

4. Have you ever said you love someone but didn't mean it?

BABUSHKA

Yes, when I wanted to love and make myself love (former fiancée).

KAHUNA

Yes, but it was not out of deceit but the fact that I did not know what love truly was and desperately wanted to love someone and be loved. I hoped if I said the words that the feelings would follow by me or be returned to me – They did not.

5. Have you ever woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you?
BABUSHKA

Nope. Though, maybe I will someday in role playing. . .

KAHUNA

Depends on the definition of “Did not know them”– I suppose I could say one time back when I was living on Maui

Bonus (as in optional): Do you remember a time when you were having sex that you smile or even laugh about now? Do tell....

BABUSHKA

Yes! In fact, I just told Kahuna this story this weekend. Years ago, a boyfriend and I bought a toy, a c*ck ring. We were so excited to use it, we found a dirt road on the way home that had a dead end, no houses around. We pulled over, got in the back seat to try it, and both kept hearing things outside that freaked us out to the point that he jumped out of the car, into the driver seat without his pants and took off so fast, dust went flying! He went so fast, I had trouble climbing from the back seat to the front seat with my p*nties around my ankles.

KAHUNA

My memory is not great now but thankfully I recall our sexual escapades last night with Babushka. We regularly laugh and smile during and I laugh and/or smile reflecting back on them with joy and gratitude.

Add – In reading Babushka’s answer I recall one from my teenage years that does crack me up, but I have not to her yet so I will have to wait.

Cost / Benefit Analysis

My favorite Courtesan (Ex) was questioning her interest in or ability to fully engage in a relationship with her Loverman.

She was asking whether her profession had contributed to her questioning. Seems to me that all of our experiences (professional and person) contribute to our seeming inability to find or keep "True Love". Just look around you - Broken and/or unhappy relationships are all around. There are a whole lot more of these than there is "True Love".

"True Love" may be more of a conceptual ideal than anything tangible that can truly be attained. One would think that after a minimum of 2200 years we would have figured "True Love" out. Not a chance - if anything 21 centuries of practice have made us worse at it.

So knowing that we are not going to improve at finding or attaining "True Love", does it even make sense to try? Relationships are scary, frought with peril and historically more likely to fail than succeed. I know it can cross my mind, between my divorce that seems to have no end date and the budding relationship with Babushka.

But relationships seem like childbirth - The pain from one may make you swear up and down that you will never do it again. But the pain subsides over time. Then you see others who have them and you once again begin to long for that little baby again (child or adult). :-)

Do the benefits of a relationship outweigh the costs? Financially or logically the answer is a resounding NO. But there is that overriding part of being human that will always ignore logic. It has from the beginning of time and it will until our extinction.

I know this - When I hold Babushka in my arms and kiss her lips, there is no question that the benefits outweight the costs or the risks........There are some things that one cannot measure scientifically or statistically.

Get Busy Livin' or Get Busy Dyin'
I did - and Denver was awesome for the 4th!!!

Three Times to Create a Habit

Blogging seems to be like most other things in life, a habit. Human nature is such that habits can quickly be replaced by the daily details of life. When things are not a priority you become less motivated. In turn it becomes more difficult to get back started again when time does permit.

Between work, kids and school I have not had the huge desire to blog. There has not been a great deal of major drama or excitement of interest. I have been spending quality time with Babushka, Among other things, this means copious amounts of sexual interaction. Don't get me wrong, sex 2-3 times a day is fantastic but I find that I have little interest in just blogging about fucking and I have not been in a mindset to write erotica.

I am taking a solo mini-sabbatical to Denver for 4th of July to catch a Rockies game and watch fireworks. Perhaps a few photos will follow.

Get Busy Livin or Get Busy Dyin
Happy 4th