As you can tell, once I start writing, I write. . . a lot. I was thinking of everything I could put regarding my epiphany. . . I could go on and on. But, it all comes down to one thing. I literally woke up one morning to an epiphany. . . the first day of the rest of my life:
1) I AM MAKING IT! I ALWAYS HAVE! I ALWAYS WILL! I was no longer the single mom working 2-3 jobs always on the brink of losing everything. I was all of the sudden the single mom working 2-3 jobs always making it! There was never a moment when we did not have way beyond the necessities of life!
2) I AM GOOD, BEAUTIFUL, A BELIEVER AND WORTHY. I am not a screw up! I am a survivor! I am not potentially beautiful! I am beautiful! Part of what allowed me to make it as far as I had was my faith. Right or wrong, I choose to be a believer! My faith does not make me weak minded, it reminds me that, partnered with my faith, I am strong! And, I am worth. Because I had forgotten this, the rest of the world had, too.
3) I CANNOT SETTLE AND HAVE MY DREAMS, TOO! It was not in me to accept less then my dreams because they "may never be realized". Quite the opposite. My dreams WOULD never be realized if I settled for less than my dream! To settle for loneliness while not being alone would be the death of my dreams.
And the best part about it? I acted on the epiphany. I did not let this opportunity for a healthy happiness pass me by!
Get Busy Livin' or Get Busy Dyin'?
I was living! I cannot even say living "again" because I was living like never before!